Plead to God

Woke up expecting something exciting to happen. I'm afraid this expectations might just hurt me. The loud footsteps of the workers was my alarm today. I woke up exactly 8:15 and saw my phone totally battery empty. As a superstitious and believer of signs person this is not a good view to start my day. Hoping for God's kind reconsideration of writing my suppose to be day 😉

Etymology

               

I'm named Jc

Initials of my parents named Julieta and Carlito

Some may say I'm lucky

Cause it can be Jesus Christ too 

But as time goes by

Where's my luck if I need it? 

I'm so empty like a sky

Without clouds floating nearby 😭

My second name is Belle

The ship where my dad works 

"I don't know" if it's when I was breed or when I was born?! 

That's the question I don't want to have an answer 

And even regret asking. 

Forgive the trying hard rhyme

I'm just so bored here at home

As if I committed a crime 

To be punished like this and never leave home

Is it already too draggy? 

And I'll end this no sense poem 

Cause I'm just making myself happy

Good thing I'm already sleepy 💤

If I became a parent someday... PS. Based on my real life drama

*I will give all my kids equal amount of attention

*I will discipline them equally and give punishments fairly 

*I will not call them any names except their own name and nickname. Especially bad words.

*I will never discipline them by hitting or beating.

*I will always spend time with them everyday and talk to them.

*I will be strict but not very tight where they cannot anymore breathe that can result to rebellion and lies.

*I will get to know their friends and be close with them too.

*I will never compare them to their siblings, classmates, friends, cousin or to anyone.

PSS. on-going

Hear Me Out (Own Composition)

Saw you from a distance

Saw you beside her

You were kneeling

And singing a song

So sweet I can hardly speak 

It's her birthday and

You want to surprise her

I'm weak and can hardly keep

Shakey legs holdin up my feet

Chorus:

Hey Hey You You Hear me out

Can't you hear my heartbeat 

Beating so loud

Hey Hey You You Just Hear me out

Look at me and don't you dare shut me out 

We've known each other for almost 4 years

You are my crush for almost 2 years

There are many times when we shared precious moments

But later realized they were only stolen moments

*Repeat chorus twice

Saw you from a distance 

Saw you beside her 

So sweet I can hardly speak

It's her birthday and you want to surprise her

*Repeat chorus

*Repeat chorus's last line

Crush

I thought we are sharing a mutual feeling

But then again it is just a random thought

That can never be bought

And you don't care because I'm just an ordinary human being

Everyday I'm looking forward in seeing you

And I'm really hoping you are, too

But again I think I'm just dreaming

When I saw you just like me smiling

09/06/13

According to Merriam-Webster's Dictionary, Happiness is a state of well-being and contentment. Today my itinerary was to wake up 8 in the morning and study math 17 and check my homework in comm 1. What happened: At 7:30 my friend woke me up and asked if what am I doing? Obviously I just woke up. He answered that he wants to come to my room. So I replied sure, after that I slept again :) After a few minutes I heard a knock. Even though I'm still not in the mood to stand up-I did. 

I really thought the main reason he went to me is because he needs something. I really thought he will copy my comm 1 homeworks. But we end up talking and talking and talking random stuff in my bed. As a girl, i was overwhelmed. If a guy visits you just to talk, who wouldn't be happy? 

At 10 we decided to eat brunch. Our class starts at 11:30 and when we checked the time it was 11 already. We rushed to take a bath and prepare for school. 

We again went to school together 💗

Hopes Up

Hidden in my modern cave
No one really knows what I crave
But when you passed our little home
It seems like I'm not anymore alone.
You may know me as your teacher's daughter
And a spoiled brat girl
But would you be surprised if I confess
Would you turn me down or answer me yes!
I'm a well known NBSB
Hope you will not disagree
I may be inexperienced
But my love for you will not anymore be hidden
This is not the typical me
Going around and spilling things
But if I keep this longer
No doubt this feeling will just linger
But If you don't feel the same
Tell me and I will take the blame
Maybe I'll just stop dreaming

That someone can love me....

Thoughts

Guess who's having a blast from her christmas vacation? Definitely NOT ME :( Another boring and sad day for me. I was left alone while my parents and brothers went to the city. In this family my elder brother was the good child my little brother was the love child and I was the sometimes taken advantage sometimes forgotten child :( Well looking at the brighter side atleast I was born to have the advantage.

:'(

I feel like I'm on the verge of blowing up. All the stress and pressure and anxiety bubbling up, but I'm never able to let it out. I just keep it inside.

Wrecking CHRISTMAS Balls

AFTER 653497389752 years... Hi! its been a while since I last updated. Thank the 140 characters of twitter because it is not anymore enough to express my feelings or what am i feeling right now. I feel betrayed, sad, the whole world is against me, ALONE and depressed. It all started last December 24 2013. We were all excited to celebrate the christmas so me and my brother started cooking our recipes for noche buena at exactly 3 in the afternoon. He cooked gulaman, I wrapped the cheeseticks, he made mango float while i cooked spaghetti. His excitement was so contagious so I myself was excited too. I'm mentally planning my outfit for church incase my crush will see me. I texted my girlfriends a merry christmas and i said nevermind the food as long as your family is complete and dont forget to go to church together :( I even started to prolong my patience in texting even though im not very fond of texting. Then there it all started. My parents started complaining then our night was a wrecked. They hid my phone and the laptop. We ate our noche buena for dinner then by 10 everybody at home is already sleeping. We did'nt even attended the mass. My saddest christmas celebration so far :(

Cute

Lechon Baka

Nakakita na po ba kayo ng Lechon Baka? If wala pa edi sana mag enjoy kayong tingnan. HAHAHHAHA

Maybe Tomorrow?

He lives in the city

In a place so far from me

We met over a small earthquake.

Now, my knees shake whenever you come.

I hope you won’t notice

But my hands tremble when you are around

I am a talkative person

But just a minute with you I was so calm

We are so close

Yet so far away

We are friends

And maybe that’s all for today

When a door closes

A new one opens

So I will wait for the day

When you will become mine and I am yours

But im sure it’s not today

Inhale, Exhale

Inhale, Exhale, Inhale, Exhale.

Here comes my crush walking so slow

Inhale Exhale, Inhale, Exhale.

His breathing soft and voice so mellow

Inhale, Exhale, Inhale, Exhale.

He smiles, teeth white as snow

Inhale Exhale, Inhale, Exhale.

Oh why can’t I move?

Inhale, Exhale, Inhale, Exhale

He’s my friend

Yet he still doesn’t know

Inhale Exhale, Inhale, Exhale

Oh crush why you so slow?

Inhale, exhale, Inhale, exhale

Is this really just an infatuation

Cause I’m confused

Inhale, Exhale. Inhale, Exhale.

My breathing is now steady and slow.

Inhale, Exhale, Inhale,Exhale